Well, that was fun, who's for apples and peanut butter??? 

K, now to finish up with Rascal in SP Pets and get to Kismet and Amber... 

So we've definitely made up.  Talked a LOT and we've figured a lot of things out.  Found out yesterday that I was pregnant, and then started bleeding today.  Suckage all around, because I also got kicked out of my house.  Have a place to stay for now, and J and I are just going to work like mad for a bit to save and get our own place.  It was a bad blow-up, and we've lost a few friends, and J is no longer talking to his sister, who was my roommate (her husband is the one that blew up at me).  It's basically been the crappiest day ever.  But J is here with me, and I'll be ok.

AR!!

That is good that everyone has a roof. And yeah, it's like I've always told Moonie, "As long as we're all together, the four of us and the cats, everything will be alright."

Penthesilea wrote on Jul 25^th, 2011 at 11:16pm:


Yeah, it's been QUITE insane today.  J and I talked yesterday at about 4:00, and it was the first time we'd talked at all since the little I'm dumping you text that he sent me.  And it was just a small talk, but it made a world of difference.  And then we went to hang out with some friends, and we talked more and more and more.  And of course yesterday I told him,  "Hey, um, I'm pregnant," which kinda changed things a LOT for us.  Then today, we went back to my house, or my old house, and I went to the bathroom and was bleeding.  So then suddenly things change again, and we got even closer.  Then I get kicked out of the house, and yeah, J and I get closer yet.

It's just crazy.  And I've gone through a major perception shift as well, 'cuz now I can see Uni's plan in a way I couldn't before.  That this storm we're going through right now is necessary so we know that we are meant to be together, and we can get through anything.

Penthesilea wrote on Jul 25^th, 2011 at 11:36pm:


I'm hoping this rapid-fire crapstorm that Uni is sending my way will not be long-term LOL  Kinda looking forward to the happily ever after Uni promises me    But we'll see.  I've got a roof over my head, and my computer with me, so I can work LOL  I may end up losing all of my other belongings and having to start from scratch, but J is here, and once I get a permanent place, my son is coming with us, too, so it'll all work out.

And J still wants to marry me, more than ever, I think.  He's even decided to get me to the doctor and get fertility testing and such, because he realized just how much he wants kids now, and he wants me in top shape for that LOL  I told him we've got time, but he said if we start getting healthy now, then in a year or so, we'll be more ready.

I keep getting surprised by him.  Yeah, things blew up BAD the other day, and I know that it's not going to be easy, but the blow up was kind of necessary, because it got a LOT of things out in the open that we hadn't been talking about.

Penthesilea wrote on Jul 26^th, 2011 at 12:07am:


Oh, I'm already being fussed over!  Last night, we were still in that "OMG, we're having a baby," glow, and he was so, so sweet.  Names picked out and everything.  Then today, when I started bleeding, he was again so sweet.  He drove me to the hospital, where they said, basically, "Yup, the test came back that you're pregnant, and yup, it looks like you're miscarrying, so just go home and rest."  And now he won't let me do anything but sit or lay around all day long.  "No, baby, you need rest," he says LOL  I went to get up and get something to eat, and he jumped up to get it for me.

With the blow up with my now ex-roommates today, J was right there yelling at them, while I'm sitting there hyperventilating, trying not to cry because we'd only just gotten back from the hospital when the ex-roommate started screaming at me about money.  At this point, he's so, so mad at them that he never wants to speak to them again; which makes me feel bad because they're his family.  My ex-roommate was his sister, and this has driven a deep wedge between them.  And I feel really bad about that, but a tiny part of me is saying, "Wow... he loves me enough to tell his family to screw off..."  They'll make up, they always do, but it sucks that it came to this.

But through it all, he's right here with me.  Hugs, kisses, cuddles, anything I need.  I've been having back pains really bad; basically contractions from the miscarriage, and whenever they hit, he's rushing over to me, rubbing my back and making sure I'm okay.

I am totally BEAT!
I am going to drag my little self to bed before I fall asleep over the keyboard.

Everyone sleep well and be safe.

I'm finally getting caught up... I think!!

It's a rainy day here in my corner of NS... I wish I could send this to people who need it more than we do!! We're still pretty saturated from our ultra wet spring and I know there are spots that really need some rain to water the crops and refresh the land.

People in my area are probably ticked off right now... Our county fair/exhibition starts this week and today is Parade Day... And as it happens almost every year, we get rain this week!!

I am not going to the fair/exhibition... For one, my son doesn't like a lot of noise, he has a mini meltdown when there are a lot of sounds he doesn't like. And two, it is NOT cheap just to get into the exhibition grounds, then one has to pay a bundle for ride tickets/bracelets, games, food and other stuff. We can't afford it!! I'd rather spend the money on groceries thank you...

I'm at my wit's end!
First, SunLord decided he was going to open up the moist catfood without help (he succeeded, they're getting an extra helping of moist food today) and then he decided that he was going to get on the table behind the computer, crawl out from under it like he did when he was a MUCH smaller kitten and..... PLAY WITH THE CABLES!!!
I "think" I have convinced him to leave the computer and its cables alone.....

I "think" I've convinced him to play elsewhere. He's nommed on some of the food I had to open and I think he's snoozing somewhere now.

I'm working on Sanctuary's "mission statement....."

Spirit used to get after Skywise with a sword.

Fortunately, it was a "Nerf" sword or my poor beloved would have made many trips to the ER! That girl did NOT back off when on the attack!