When we first talked about getting married, we were planning this huge party wedding. He picked out all the colors, and was planning everything. I only had say in my dress and our honeymoon LOL but he picked colors that I adored, hot pink and lime green, and it would have been perfect for us, but very expensive.
We ended up rushing the wedding and not being able to do that. But as part of those plans, we were going to dance down the aisle to "Party Rock Anthem." It was hugely popular at the time we were planning the wedding, and it would have been so fun and quirky, just like us.
Whenever we've had trouble in our relationship, and I wasn't sure it was going to work out, suddenly, I'd hear that song, even if I hadn't heard it in awhile.
In fact, I don't recall hearing that song in a few months. We'd been listening to mix CDs lately, and that song wasn't on any of them.
Since he moved out, I've heard that song no less than 18 times.
And the other day, I was watching Dancing with the Stars, and suddenly, one of the couples was dancing to that song. And I just broke down. I absolutely broke down. It just crushed me. Because I'd always said that was one of my signs that we were meant to be.
In fact, last summer, before we got married, we broke up for two weeks. And I waited, stuck by him while he did his thing. It was really hard. And one day, we were sitting in the garage, and suddenly that song came on the radio, and we just looked at each other. He smiled, I smiled, and suddenly, I knew that it was going to be OK.
And things like that happened over and over again with that song. After we got back together that time, we hadn't heard the song in awhile. Then suddenly, it came on the radio, and he said, "Hmm... I think that's a sign about who I'm supposed to be with."
And it shocked me that he said that. Because nobody knows how much I look for signs. They get hints of it every once and awhile, but nobody knows how much I see them. Everywhere.
And I'm still seeing them. I know this isn't going to be easy. I know seeing the signs might be wishful thinking. But right now, I have to have hope.
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